coobybook Chapter 123 Adolescence is about conquering the mental world.
Chapter 123 Adolescence is about conquering the mental world.
An Ding Si's life is destined to embark on a complex and unpredictable journey.
This is one phase of Zhen Xiaosi's dream, a girl from Northeast China, and it may become extremely complex and elusive in the future.
Because her constantly retracing childhood is like an endless journey, full of chaos, ambiguity, and the unknown.
She is an undefined genius who appears to be surrounded by love, but in reality, she is constantly struggling with herself.
During her childhood, she had to conquer various challenges in the material world, such as material possessions, delicious food, and loving hugs; while in her adolescence, she faced a profound exploration of the spiritual world.
An Dingsi leaned against the headboard, holding a thick book in her hands, her eyes shining slightly. The more she read, the more she felt that conquering the spiritual world truly depended entirely on herself!
"The book is full of useful information, but who can help me open the door to my heart? Only then can I regain my girlishness. Hmph, it seems I'll have to do it myself."
She lowered her head and muttered to herself, letting out a soft chuckle:
"Even though my parents love me like a treasure and care for me like money in eight banks, their love is like a warm harbor. It's comfortable, but if you want to find the 'key' to your heart through them, that's just a pipe dream!"
Zi'an, listening from the side, couldn't help but roll her eyes:
"What do you know, little kid? The mental world is a hurdle that everyone has to overcome on their own; no one can hand you the key."
He said leisurely, "But you are quite interesting. You are clearly the kind of little princess that everyone dotes on, but you have a heart that is 'unwilling to admit defeat' and always want to make your own 'world'."
An Ding Si pouted:
"No, that's not true. On the surface, I'm pampered like a kitten, eating and drinking well every day, and having nothing to worry about. But actually, there's always a voice in my heart saying—you have to walk this path by yourself, cross it by yourself, and face it by yourself. No one can show you the way."
She spread her hands, her eyes filled with determination.
"Sometimes I think birth, aging, sickness, and death are good things, unlike the path of no return I've taken. The deeper I go into my heart, the more meaningless it sometimes feels. Don't let my soft and cute appearance fool you; in reality, I've already had a silent 'ultimate showdown' with myself!"
Zi'an smiled and, like a seasoned driver, pointed into the distance and said:
“Sizi, your journey has been like a ‘great river and a vast lake,’ full of unpredictable changes. But look, no matter how difficult it was, you still managed to overcome all obstacles. Now, you are standing at the crossroads leading to the freedom of your soul.”
“I hope so,” An Dingsi smiled slyly. “Who would have thought that the little princess who is pampered has already secretly become a ‘master of inner strength’? I’m fighting with myself, and no one can help me.”
With each reading and each reflection, Zhen Xiaosi felt she was one step closer to freedom.
She stood up, drew back the curtains, and looked out at the sky, her eyes shining brightly.
"I may be a newly born genius, a seed waiting to sprout. Although I am carefree and glamorous on the outside, the 'silent struggle' inside is my truest battle."
Zi'an paused for a moment, then smiled softly:
"Xiao Si embodies the spirit of 'genius' to the fullest. He doesn't follow the usual path. He is cute on the outside but struggles on the inside. It can be considered Xiao Si's exploration history in the 'Renaissance' version of the future world."
Look, others are discovered by dedicating their entire lives to one thing; but you, while traveling everywhere, are quietly 'discovering yourself.'
“Haha,” An Dingsi clapped his hands. “Of course! I’m not afraid of being alone. Loneliness is my closest companion! You see, my bedtime stories are dedicated to all those who suffer. Each of us is our own hero! We will all overcome our constraints and achieve the victory of freedom.”
Zi An narrowed his eyes slightly: "Yes, I understand. All of this is closely related to your invincible free spirit. You are the one who can transcend all shackles. Just like the early Tang Dynasty you dreamed of, you are the 'one-horned rhinoceros' that runs through the mist, running on the road."
An Ding Si stopped and suddenly said softly:
"Brother Zi'an, I don't know if you are harvesting in the peaceful dawn, while you are sound asleep?!"
Zi'an did not answer directly, but said, "I am your literary dream."
"Whenever I fall asleep, my soul seems to gain endless power, and can continue to fly in my dreams."
Like the faint light of dawn breaking outside the window, An Ding Si felt, "At that time, I was at my freest."